I made a nice smoothie with an apple, banana, mango, yoghurt, butter milk and some sugar, sugar.  Soo good.

This is the left over.  So irresistible.

Thinking out loud.

I suffer from bipolar which is a mental health illness. Without medication, the moods can go up and down. I have been on mental health medication since 1999, have had seven mental health hospitalization, the last one being in 2010. The main mood I suffer is fear and anger. It affects those around me, so I have to do what I have to do to be stable. I take my medication in a committed manner.

Good progress in Sociology 335..

I am so grateful to the Creator for getting me to this place.  I thank my beloved husband for all the help he gives me in my study.  He is very supportive.

My assignment where I read an article, presented it and did a review earned me 80%.  For the weekly assignment, I was awarded 95%

I feel good.

Because my last name begins with B...

The teacher arranged our presentation slot beginning with last names.  I go first.  I have already done the PowerPoint, finished the reading review, done the weekly assignment and feeling like a good girl. 

Thank you Creator.

I told my friend...

...when he called this morning that I will be

with school until April.  He said he would not bother me and that was that.  I immediately felt guilty even though I had planned what to say for days.

Then I felt empowered.  I am the one who will not do well in class if I don't lay boundaries with people.  I am standing up for myself.  At the moment, it is not pretty.  I will get used to.

Coping with mental health medication.

Whenever I was admitted in hospital for mental health, like I was 7 times, the nurses gave us medication with dinner at 6:00 PM.  I did not have trouble waking up early in the morning.  After the hospital, I would take my medication at 9:00 PM or thereabouts.  I don't know why.

I have never thought of going back to hospital pill time and I have to because my class this semester starts at 10:00 AM, meaning I have to be up before then.  I don't want to wake up and rush out the door.  I would like to do certain chores, have coffee and wake up slowly.  This is the main reason I started taking the meds early today.

When I told my beloved husband about what my intentions were, he agreed with me and told me to reduce by an hour each day.  So today I took them at 8:00 PM, tomorrow 7:00 PM and Tuesday, I will be at 6:00 PM and stick to that time.

So help me God.