For Jon Stewart.

Am a Competent Toastmaster. 'U r an Universe of Universes & your soul a source of songs.'―Rubén Darío. Man is a universe within himself.―Bob Marley. Jessy RIP.

Dear Jon,

Thank you Jon for a journey that I thought we had together.  I have writing a blog since 2005.  It was not until 2013 that I started to see that the TV during your show and that of Stephen Colbert, was talking to me.  I was concerned because when I was first admitted to a mental hospital in 1999, the doctor asked me if the TV was talking to me.  For saying yes,  (the TV would ask me if I had an idea?) I was diagnosed as Borderline Schizophrenia.  Next visit to the mental hospital, I was told I had Bipolar.  I never really experienced the powerful force of the TV speaking to me until 2013 with Stephen Colbert. That is when the TV actually came alive for me.

Thank you for keeping me very busy.  I had just started a Intercultural Training Education programme.  I know I am writing to Jon and cannot help mention others.  Jon is the Head. Jon, your leadership skills show in every person you have worked with, including if you count me.  My life became upbeat, I had quality shows to watch.  I could not tell anyone that the TV was talking to me in different shows because I did not want change of medication or diagnosis. TV is/was talking to me.  I was no longer depressed in bed.  BIG AMEEN!   I formed a routine where we woke up, have coffee, a toke and watch the shows.  And wait for the next show and suffer absence of shows through the weekend and a Monday. I had school terms and holidays and the shows, and writing, purposeful.  There is a real disconnect when you leave the show Jon.  A real disconnect.

That I am obsessed by the shows is true.  The men are held in high regard and they make me laugh alright?.  The shows including that of John Oliver and Larry Wilmore, keep me going.  All through the day I am aware that a production is being made.  I go through the day or week knowing that something new is being created.  That gives me hope and it interrupts my mania when I am caught in a thought process that does not seem to have a solution.  And that is my definition of mania.

Jon, most of the times when you addressed FOX News, I thought you were talking to me.  I would flinch and quiver, without showing,  which is a different mood from laughing, and still a mood.  Then when you started addressing TRUMP, I switched my thoughts from clicking to FOX News and started clicking to TRUMP.  Always comb your hair kinda thing...I don't always comb my hair, it is a nuisance.

The coolest thing is that the 4 of you guys managed to get a huge load of depression off me.  Huge. Like a car battery that needed to be jump started,  you worked on my heart and spirit, body and mind.  My heart would beat fast with excitement, fear or even rage.  I never knew what was going to happen. I just know I am not the same any more.  I am better, thank the Creator.   I have a strong beating heart.  It has been tried, tested and true. My job was to keep writing as I could not share with anyone my being spoken to by the TV.  This is unlike anything I have ever experienced.

And there I am writing along in 2015 and my beloved husband tells me that you, Jon, quit.  I told him right away that it must be something to do with the awards from Omaze, from helping out with the troops.  I was crazy. I was totally affected.  It was during reading break in February and I could not study.  I could not eat, I could not sleep.  I might have been going manic and the shows were off for a week and I survived by the grace of God.. I didn't know anything other than the fact that this TV speaking to me has gone too far.  I had to pull myself together and finish the semester and think about what everything meant.

Everything meant that somehow in this life, I as... had been spoken to by the TV, reacted to what the TV was saying by writing back on a blog, twitter or google+ and this was having some effect.  I started to see the power of the word, spoken or written.  Because of things I believe you were talking to me through the TV, I was able to better myself.  I have a purpose every morning, be it even to watch a show.  A show that makes me laugh, makes me face my fears, makes me grow, makes me call my mum!  Really, so much of my heart burdens have rolled away.  I have healed so much interacting with you Jon and others.  God sent you to me.  If this is not what TV was meant to do, then I don't know what.

Today, I heard that you let go a 50 million dollar contract.  That is nothing to sneer about.  God forgive me.  For any part I played in making you decide to leave, I am sorry.  That was never my intention.  I was hoping you would always be on The Daily Show and I would always be typing something in response.  Dunia kweli ina mambo.

For making a way for me to be involved with Omaze, the veterans and autism, I say thank you.  I love you so much and I must say it was a quite the ride.  Pamoja.

I would like to join you in your other causes.  I love to work with you.  Oh, you never answered my question of how we can get in touch with you - maybe you don't want that.  Oh well.

Thank you for saving my life.  Really.

Godspeed.

...

PS:  Please run for President of United States unless you have somewhere you are going to go live during the next presidential session...  You will have to endure the leadership of another while the whole time you would have been President.  You would have saved us all.   

You still can..