This is the second year that I have not mourned her. That is part of being healthy. Being able to let go of stuff. Yeah, letting go of what we loved most.
That doesn't mean that I have forgotten her. I am just mature about the whole thing.
Everything else is going well. Today is house cleaning day. Friday. I start around 10:00am and should be done before 1:00pm. I will spray the stove and try and remove that stain. If I can't get it off, I am not going to dwell on it.
Menses. That was something I was worried about a little about but not anymore. 9 days late is not so bad after the fact. I think the HP shocked the body somehow.
Can't wait for lab work in a couple of weeks and some lab test results in another couple of weeks. So a month from now I will have results. Meanwhile, I just keep keeping on.
Since I started going to the gym three days a week I have not stopped and I feel that my weight is normalizing. That also has to do with the HP. I am on day 16.
I am feeling stronger. I have energy as I jog to work or where ever. I remember around end of August 2006, I started my healing journey by walking. I would walk stiff as a stick and I would bump into people because I could not see them. My head was down. I continued to walk and slowly my head lifted and my arms started moving up and down. I had forgotten how to walk. It was mainly the high dosage of Olanzopine (anti psychotic) that turned me into a zombie.
When I remember how far I have come, I keep trotting forward because I don't want to go back where I started.
It is evident that I am getting better. Other people can see it better than I can.
It is best I get cleaning.
Happy memorial day Jessy!
12 years ago, my little girl past on.
This is the second year that I have not mourned her. That is part of being healthy. Being able to let go of stuff. Yeah, letting go of what we loved most.
That doesn't mean that I have forgotten her. I am just mature about the whole thing.
Everything else is going well. Today is house cleaning day. Friday. I start around 10:00am and should be done before 1:00pm. I will spray the stove and try and remove that stain. If I can't get it off, I am not going to dwell on it.
Menses. That was something I was worried about a little about but not anymore. 9 days late is not so bad after the fact. I think the HP shocked the body somehow.
Can't wait for lab work in a couple of weeks and some lab test results in another couple of weeks. So a month from now I will have results. Meanwhile, I just keep keeping on.
Since I started going to the gym three days a week I have not stopped and I feel that my weight is normalizing. That also has to do with the HP. I am on day 16.
I am feeling stronger. I have energy as I jog to work or where ever. I remember around end of August 2006, I started my healing journey by walking. I would walk stiff as a stick and I would bump into people because I could not see them. My head was down. I continued to walk and slowly my head lifted and my arms started moving up and down. I had forgotten how to walk. It was mainly the high dosage of Olanzopine (anti psychotic) that turned me into a zombie.
When I remember how far I have come, I keep trotting forward because I don't want to go back where I started.
It is evident that I am getting better. Other people can see it better than I can.
It is best I get cleaning.
Happy memorial day Jessy!
Lovingly, Your Mami...
Minneh you are such a charm to know and work with. It is really hard not crying every time I read your stories but I get to smile even more knowing how well you are doing.
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I did some editions near the end. Did you read?
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Umm, also, my beloved joined the club way back in February 1997. The sign up was slow then because he is # 19 and I am # 26. He knew you from Hempology. He was a high school student who used to come down for Hempology. Interesting...
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