Thanks very much for being such an influence in my life.
Remember when you came to see me at the hospital over three years ago? Only you and beloved came to see me. I will never forget. I know I was not making any sense but I knew you were there and that is all that mattered. I sure thought I had lost my job after the visit but you let me back in with a doctor's note. I almost lost my job or so I felt.
This was my last visit at the mental hospital. It was the sixth admission between 1999-2006. I am determined every minute not to go there again. It is the only to keep away. On February 11, 08, I started a routine time table. This was after I had concluded a 10 year mourning of my daughter. When I was told that Jessy had died, I fell on the carpet and my body was lifting itself of the ground. The guy whose house I was in told me that it was too late to start screaming and I had to be quiet. That is where the mourning delay happened. He should just have let me let it lose...
My routine included, writing/computer, reading, crochet, colouring, walking/praying, listening to music, listening to the radio.video on line, work, collage, laundry, housekeeping and washing dishes. I kept reviewing the routine until now I am on mainly listening to music, computer/writing, praying, gym, work, housekeeping, laundry, walking and other stuff. I find some activities come handy during winter season. Some activities I do daily and others weekly.
My mania has been distracted and that takes activity and the medication is a bonus. I doubt that...about the meds.
The point is, I was able to find myself a balance and concentrate on work and play and rest in between. I am no longer bored. An idle mind is the devil's workshop. A lot of work has gone into getting me well and a lot of time has passed. Right now, I see results.
Thanks for coming out Ted and Ryan. Most people were afraid of the whole visiting the mental health hospital situation.
You and Beloved ROCK!
I was sick and you came to see me...
Very humbling...Ted...and Beloved! I won't give you a reason to come see me there again. That was 2006 and now we are in 2009. I must have learned something about worrying all the time. I went bonkers...sad. Happy Very Happy Sunday all...
Cheers Guys!
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