Yeah I did let her go very gladly. I was just being all Halloweeny.
Michelle, thanks very much for you empathy and Tokes too. And all other wonderful people.
The omega 3-6-9 has taken away much of my anxiety and so I can handle the wait but every now and then I feel like I cannot bear it. The gym helps too. I have added to my gym routine boxing. The first time I was there I punched and kicked so hard that I bled on the one finger...and that really released a lot of tension. An effect that I did not get from the treadmill. I have to wait for my finger to heal before I can punch adequately. The punching is helping with getting the anger out.
During my mental health episodes, I got really angry all six admissions and I am glad I let it out in the appropriate place. I had soo much anger bottled in. At least now I have an outlet, thank God for the punching bag. I just want all the madness out of me so that I can live my life. That is not too much to ask - is it?
I put faces to what I am punching. That first day it was Mum...poor Mum...we are now even.
Next was immigration but I couldn't perform as well as I wanted with the injured figure. There turn is coming. May take a couple days worth of punching. Next on line is life itself. Then from there I can just punch the bag like a normal person...as if!
This morning I sang my beloved Happy Birthday and then I sent off my receipt for a monthly gym fee of $50 to the BC People with AIDS Society (BCPWAs). I hope they can pay for my gym otherwise I have to cough the money myself. The benefit I get from the gym is worth every penny. If for any reason BCPWAs will not reimburse me, we will budget for the gym.
All this time I was going to the gym, I was sponsored by City Hall. I don't qualify for their services since abandoning disability and that ladies and gentlemen is how it goes.
Cheers!
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